Sort of upset!

Having to sell my jewelry that I received mostly when I was working and some of which had been laid away and it meant so much to me just to know that it was there. ha Ha! Money is needed and perhaps very soon as hubby may need to go to Miami for his aortic valve replacement. What a mess this all is! I have done without and just realized that there is very little money and this had to be done. Sort of the same thing happened when he needed to be off work for 4 months after his Open Heart Surgery. I had to take nearly all of my money that I had stashed away in my IRA and use it to keep our heads above water

I thought this was what you were supposed to do in a marriage. But after I took all the stuff to the 2 places I went today, my husband said you did nto get rid of all those emerald rings did you and all your gold bracelets and I said, well, I showed them to you 3 days ago and you did not say don't sell any of it. It is gone now, absolutely, a memory and I thought to myself, why didn't you take the stuff I bought you.

Am I dying and do I have an illness that I don't know about and he does? Is this why he simply acted so lame? I dont' know as it was just to traumatic to have this stuff all so pretty and so loved and so full of memories one minute and within less than a half hour they are all gone. Really hurting, but trying to be brave as usual. He is acting like an idiot about a bicycle that just sits in the garage and collects dust as he never rides it. What is up with that? We can make money which we need and it just sits. I will give him 2 more days and then it will go on craig's list!  If I have to sell and be strong then by God, he had better do the same dam thing.

I have taken care of people and helped him thoughout our marriage oh so much and worked when I could hardly walk and yet, I did it to try and keep things smoothly running around here. I did nto knwo what was the matter and finally found a doctor to tell me I had this strange thing that I had never heard of called Fibromyalgia. As I read more about it I got real discouraged as I must have had it for years and years.  Got the diagnosis in 1992 and I continued to fight it until I could hardly stand up in 1995.

since  I have been off work, I have found out so much more about the illness and have been so discouraged. I look just overweight but I am very ill. so many other problems that go along with it.